unkle grumps.

played northern knights today.. beat them 29-5, i think.. didn't score though.. haha.. got a few cuts a bruises, as usual.. stayed and watched the other games, had a few beers, then went to meet gabe for dinner.. then headed back to gabe's to take a shit.. after which, mindy called and said she was reaching.. so we picked her up and went to the swimming pool.. gabe and i went to the jacuzzi while mindy sat somewhere else alone.. haha sorry girl.. took a bath in gabe's, then headed home.. fucking tired day..

church tomorrow.. haven't been there almost a month, and i feel so guilty.. each night before church, i would be out drinking or partying, and not being able to wake up the next for church.. so, since i'm home early, am gonna sleep early..

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back from work.. a fucking tiring day at work..

went to school at 9, left school at 9.40.. haha shit.. met gabe and giap, then we headed to town together, had chicken rice for lunch.. then we headed to PS arcade and we met mindy there too.. slacked awhile, then gabe had to go for his FTT, so mindy, giap and i decided to go to the ktv.. but on our way there, we thought it was a waste of money, so we decided to play pool instead.. after that, i headed to holland to work..

there were fucking lots of customers today, unexpectedly.. i was sweating like a pig man, running up and down the whole time.. had to work till 11.30.. after work, we were treated to a bottle of carlsberg.. haha thats good enough.. after that, headed home, and now i'm here.. gonna sleep soon..

we play northern knights tomorrow at YCK stadium.. should be an easy match.. yup yup..

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SLEEP, is what i did the whole damn day.. slept late, woke up at 10.30 when my lesson was at 9.. haha.. went for my 1 o'clock lesson.. slept in class half the time.. haha.. went home, ate, bathed and slept.. woke up for dinner, then slacked for a while in front of the com, the tv.. haha.. boring day.. sleep sleep sleep..

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high on alcohol, that we all were last night.. drinking on an empty stomach, is not a good thing.. problems problem problems.. everybody has problems.. last night, went to club Home.. wanted to enjoy myself, but ended up many problems arised.. we were all high, talking lots of cock, having a good time.. then, people started having problems.. problems regarding love.. first was gabe, whole night sitting outside on the phone, feeling upset.. then was mindy, feeling heartbroken about someone.. everybody was high and down.. just before we left, skinny shane broke a lamp.. was sitting on the couch when i saw the bouncer grabbing shane outside, i had to follow.. talked to the bouncer cos shane was still drunk.. talked to the manager later.. everything was settled for the night, am supposed to call the manager later.. right after that, another group of drunkards pushed one of the huge glass table down the stairs.. then the manager ran out of the club again to stop them.. almost started a fight, then police came.. haha.. kids..

am in school now and its so fucking boring.. fucking tired too, gonna go home and sleep.. not gonna go out today..

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just woke up.. haha, left roger's house at 6, then something happened, i couldn't go home.. but in the end i could, so, slept at like 7.30.. it was fun at roger's house.. ashley, jielun, julian, roger, esther and val.. ros was home too with 2 of her friends..

anyway, not really sure about "Home" tonight, somehow, my mood changed.. but i have to give faith face, so am probably gonna go tonight

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meeting different kinds of people in my life, make me realise what true friends are.. and meeting new friends, makes me feel happy.. i've lost a couple of good ones, which really tears my heart.. things change, people change, including me, i'm not denying..

met up with mindy at kap then headed town together and had dinner.. then we went over to lido macs to join alex, gabe, giap and kenneth.. sat there for a while then headed back to fareast to meet a couple others.. wasn't that interested, so gabe and kenneth joined me to get a couple of beers and talked about life, friends, almost everything.. headed straight home right after.. been thinking throughout the bus ride, what a mess my life is now.. complicating.. sigh.. at least i have other friends who are concerned about everything now..

been drinking every night.. its becoming a daily routine for me (and gabe, haha). guess after all that training, that belly is coming back! schizer!

don't come telling me "got new friend forget old friend".. i don't see the same with you guys anymore..

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went for supper with jamers and alex.. had wanton mee and 2 glasses of teh ping.. heh.. i'm a gloutton, i know.. bedtime for me..

i guess things said were in a moment of frustration, im sorry..

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another madass day in town.. met mindy, ju, jamers, alex, gabe, steph, kenneth and mitchell after school.. headed to town to have dinner, then slacked around at the dinner table for hours.. haha.. fucking tired, slept there.. giap, chris and another guy, forgot his name, came down to meet us.. then amanta, weizhen and another came.. ju and jamers went home, then we walked to lucky to play pool.. and now, am back home.. really fucking tired.. gonna sleep real soon man..

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town today was madass.. met mindy then went town together.. chilled at starbucks, waiting for gabe and mike.. gabe was high on 2 cans of heine, was talking lots of crap.. haha fcuking funny.. kenneth came soon after that, then we headed to lucky plaza so i could have a few punches.. after which, headed to play some pool.. then stepho mamma, alex and ming hao came over.. played pool for quite long.. then earlier on had the intention of going acid bar, have a few beers, listen to live music.. but it was kinda late, so gabe and i headed to 7/11 and bought us a few beers.. sat around ck tangs and outside wisma.. then headed to lido macs and had some ice-cream and fries.. talked alot of cock the whole night.. haha.. then they decided to go to orchard towers to take a look.. on our way there, we found a fridge full of vitagen and apples.. haha.. koped some vitagen and apples.. then the stupid me decided to take the whole box.. haha.. fucking lots of vitagen.. pictures up soon (if i am able to upload it).. haha.. then we took a cab home..

haha it was fucking fun today.. doing stupid shit, talking lots of cock.. haven't had such fun in awhile man..

shit.. school's starting tml.. sucks.. okay, back to studying.. and can't wait for faith's party this wednesday.. go find some hot chicks.. heh..

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If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't love who chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?

"Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.

Food for thought, think of this: Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?

Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain?

Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be head, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.

When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longeryou stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.

Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.

Love them like a river because a river flows forever.

Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt alot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who will be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they meant nothing. (This goes for gals as well).

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its the 3rd week in a row i haven't been to church.. sigh.. always wake up late.. its the late night drinking that i've been up to.. going out at 10 in the night, coming home at 5 in the morning.. am gonna try to cut down on all these man.. but honestly, what is there to do in singapore? nothing else man.. all i can think of is to go somewhere to party, or drink.. yeah.. fuck it..

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fcuk.. i'm high.. went to town to meet earl, shane, roy and james.. slacked around, played arcade.. then went home.. met my brother and his friends for drinks.. had lotsa beer.. really lots.. like 6 jugs? shared among 4 of us.. listenened to them talk alot of cock.. which was kinda funny.. haha.. lots of stupid things happened.. lazy to type it all out.. haha shit.. highness..

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slept the whole fcuking day man.. right after my previous entry, till 12 when i woke up and had my lunch, then went back to sleep.. and now i'm up again blogging, cos i've nothing to do.. prob going back to sleep again.. heh..

supposed to meet khairul for lunch.. came back from the states a week ago? yeah.. supposed to have a gathering, but ended up most of the ruggers are in negri sembilan.. so only gabriel and bryne went for lunch.. i didn't go cos i was too fcuking tired.. actually meeting at 11am at bugis? i couldn't wake up man..

think i'll probably stay home today.. don't feel like spending anymore money.. SAVE SAVE SAVE!!! haha..

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what was supposed to be an enjoyable night for us turned out to be an angry, frustrating, sad, depressed night..

as usual, chinablack was great.. its been eons since i last went there.. haha.. i still love that place man.. went there with earl, shane, hanni, mindy, stephanie, amanta, yauting, eunice, gabriel, alex, kenneth.. met ming hao, janesh and alot of other people there too.. i fucking love chinablack.. haha.. music is still as good, but surprisingly, LOTS more RnB tonight.. not the usual 1 hour RnB, 1 hour house.. danced the night away.. haha.. shiok.. haven't had such fun in a long while.. drinks still as cheap.. $10 juggies..

well, something happened, then most of us had to leave.. the situation seems rather familiar, and so it'll be over soon.. i hope.. yup.. looking forward to chinablack again soon.. heh.. fucking tired now.. gonna sleep..

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going out to drink later, with justin.. maybe going black tomorrow night.. fucking long never been to black already.. so, i'm looking forward to tomorrow..

well, i'm gonna flunk my 2 papers today, that's for sure.. met steph on the bus today.. happy working!

Yahoo! no more papers already.. can do some serious partying.. gonna finish my driving too.. pia all the way!!!

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Then came a soft, gentle tuggin upon my heart. suddenly i somehow knew that my life did not need to be this way and that God had something better for me. it was almost as if God himself was reminding me... I Am the Author of True Love; I Am the Creator of Romance.

a quiet challenge deeply touched my spirit in that moment, as if God were tenderly standing before me, with tears of boundless love in His eyes, whispering to my heart... you have searched for true love in your own way. but My ways are not your ways. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must trust Me with the pen of this precious area of your life. will you let Me write your love story?

dedicated to someone who was part of my life, someone whom i loved, someone i trusted, someone i gave my all, someone who did not commit anything, who never felt a thing, the love i gave, this song ends it all.. Goodbye to everyone.. thanks for being a part in my life..