unkle grumps.

*no one knows what its like, to be the bad man, to be the sad man, behind blue eyes*


thats the song stuck in my head right now.. yesterday i met her, i was so happy just to see her.. i guess we were just not meant to be.. she was so sweet, so beautiful, so adorable, i took advantage of that, now i regret.. i lost to someone whom i trusted all my life, who cheated on me.. FUCK YOU! well.. no point being angry.. i'm at ash's house now.. stayed over.. nothing to do, so just drank.. sigh.. life is like that.. i can't change anything..

*Where are you? and i'm so sorry. i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight, i need somebody and always. this sick strange darkness, Comes creeping on so haunting every time, as I stared I counted. Webs from all the spiders, Catching things and eating their insides, Like indecision to call you. and hear your voice of treason. Will you come home and stop this pain tonight, Stop this pain tonight.

i'm so bored.. stupid knee is screwed up.. dunno about my SN man.. haiz.. haven't been blogging for a few days already.. now at darren's house.. probably going to hollan village to chill or maybe to study.. yeah.. got the job at crustacean.. starting work this friday.. ooo.. heh.. bored..

started the day off with a PQS test that i was late for (as usual).. damn im gonna have so many probs in school man.. had a real depressing time before and after training.. after training, everyone went for dinner together.. met diana and actually cleared everything up.. i really feel much better after talking to her.. and to ben, thanks for actually talking to us, it really helped.. thanks.. well, now i finally know everything (maybe).. i don't blame anyone, just upset with some ppl.. yeah.. after that went to HV with joel, ash, bing and faith.. bought beer from 7/11 and sat at the coffeeshop again.. had a good chat.. and there was one point in time, we were all flexing our muscles and taking photos of it to see who's was bigger or who had nicer cutting.. haha.. after that, headed home.. well, i feel kinda happy, knowing all that has happened, and that everything has been cleared up.. right now, i'm gonna concentrate hard on my studies.. gonna make an effort.. yup

life's a bitch.. i've had it with all these bullshit.. all i know is, life's a bitch, and she's a bitch..

so bored.. had training.. played pool.. thats my day.. argh.. dying of boredom.. why does everybody have problems at the same time? life is unfair.. haiz..

i don't find myself appreciated man.. is it something wrong i did? haiz.. i'll just keep a low profile for the time being.. i need some time to think things through man.. all these shit going on in my life.. *bleah*

haiz.. so many things on my mind now.. i don't even know what i want! even if i do want that something or someone, it just doesn't seem right.. this is jus killing me.. haiz forget it man.. i just give up on everything, and everyone.. i'm losing it.. argh!

well, was late for school, as usual.. class started at 8, but i reached sch at 9.20.. grrr.. for the first time in my life, i took over an hour to get to school.. stupid jam.. yeah, after school, met manfred and jie lun.. while waiting for leon, we went to the library to watch a video.. "That one no enough".. haha.. although i watched it before, i still think its hilarious.. haha.. then leon came, and he drove us to town.. met joel, then we went to cine to eat.. then walked back to lido to meet ben, gloria, darrell, glen, ashley and kachun.. we watched "Harold & Kumar" hahaha it was freaking hilarious man!! i love that show!! faith joined us too.. after the movie, we went to cuscaden to drink.. haha.. then we all went our separate ways.. joel gave me a lift back, and we stopped to have supper at jurong kechil.. then headed home.. haha.. damn tired now man.. gonna slp!

haiz.. bitch.. she can even laugh that i'm upset.. well done.. had club training today.. wanted to hear faith on air.. lol.. only heard the beginning part.. didn't get to hear the rest.. yep.. all ready to play against SRC this saturday at YCK stadium.. they are the toughest we are gonna play, but will try my best.. i'm so bored..

went for training today, after that had dinner.. then went to holland village to have a drink.. bought beer at 7/11 and then went tho the small hawker centre to sit and chat.. haha.. faith's gonna be on air tml.. i'm sure i'm gonna have a good laugh! hahaha! ok i won't be mean.. will support her! anyway, tired, gonna slp!

had sch from 8-5 today man only with a 1 hour break.. i hate tuesdays! so tiring.. wanted to go training after sch, but had to go meet gen hong and a few other for dinner as it was genhong's farewell dinner.. he's going back to India soon.. had steamboat at marina south.. the food was excellent.. loved it man.. after that, went to play arcade for a little while, then decided to go home.. kinda tired today man.. so gonna slp.. ciaos