Sunday, November 28, 2004
today was the first time i watch singapore idol.. haha.. boy and i really wonder how slyvester could actually make it to the finals.. been seeing him on magazines, newspapers, tv.. thought he was really good, but when i first saw him sang, which was a while ago, he really sucked.. gosh, i think i can sing better than him.. should go join singapore idol 2.. haha.. hmmm.. haven't been blogging for awhile.. went to rouge last night.. busted 21 bucks.. went in for nothing.. just sat there and stoned.. sucks man.. rouge really sucks.. the crowd kinda sucked too.. well, i'm never going there again.. yup.. i'm bored.. so bored..
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
back from sri lanka.. well, it was an alright trip.. had to fall sick on the second day.. darn it.. here's what happened..
Wed: went to mannie's house, waited for jamers and farrell, then headed off to T1.. on the way, i realised i forgot the most important thing.. my hp.. i left it at mannie's house.. good thing ash was still home, so he helped me pick it up from mannie's house.. had lunch at the airport, then headed off to check in.. all the virgins (those who were going on tour for the first time) had to carry pacifiers and rattlers the whole time, whoever not carrying it will be fined.. and also, everyone had to carry "hats"(un-opened condoms).. whoever wears the "hat" last will be fined.. haha.. well, it was fun.. bought stuff from DFS then headed off to sri lanka.. the plane ride was around 4-5 hours, reached sri lanka at around 7pm (sri lankan time, 2 hours later than singapore, means singapore time is 9pm).. washed up at the hotel and headed to the swimming club for dinner and drinks.. after that, some of us headed back to the hotel to slack, then headed to the casinos.. first we headed to bally's, but it kinda sucked, so we headed to bellagio.. well, i lost $3000 that night.. equivalent to $50 sing.. went back to the hotel and slept..
thu: woke up early in the morning as we all were forced to, had a morning jog.. to warm ourselves up before the game.. after the jog, we headed to have breakfast.. then some of us went to swim.. haha, took some funny pics at the pool.. then we all headed to the game.. it was vs the sri lankan u-19.. well, they had 40 players, and we only had 17.. it was a well played match by both teams, but they won by 2 tries.. we were all tired out.. for them, they used 2 different teams.. so it was kinda unfair, but we showed them what we singaporeans were made of.. headed back to the hotel to bathe and headed to clancy's.. had dinner and drinks there.. i was very very high that night cos i left my rattler in the pouch and was the last to take it out.. so i had to down black label whiskey with a little coke in a milk bottle.. 1/4 of the bottle filled with whiskey and, you can say, 1/4 of the 1/4 of whiskey was coke.. and u know how the kick will come if u slowly drink.. i was almost gone man.. headed back home, then slept..
fri: woke up in the morning, was supposed to go white water rafting, but fell sick.. had viral infection.. very high fever, bad cough with phlegm, flu, sore throat.. bad.. stayed at the hotel the whole day..
sat: stayed at the hotel.. bought medicine from the pharmacy but didn't work, called a doctor and treated me.. missed the next game which we won against white adults.. slept till the next day..
sun: woke up feeling much better.. had breakfast, then went shopping at odel.. not a bad place.. very cheap stuff.. then we had our own free time.. started to fall sick again, so headed back to the room and popped my pills.. wanted to join the guys out but brother ben told me to stay and rest.. there was my last night at sri lanka, at the hotel sleeping.. well done..
well, there goes my trip.. kinda screwed up.. oh well, gonna get ready to meet XY and squid to buy stuff for XY's BBQ later.. ciao..
Wed: went to mannie's house, waited for jamers and farrell, then headed off to T1.. on the way, i realised i forgot the most important thing.. my hp.. i left it at mannie's house.. good thing ash was still home, so he helped me pick it up from mannie's house.. had lunch at the airport, then headed off to check in.. all the virgins (those who were going on tour for the first time) had to carry pacifiers and rattlers the whole time, whoever not carrying it will be fined.. and also, everyone had to carry "hats"(un-opened condoms).. whoever wears the "hat" last will be fined.. haha.. well, it was fun.. bought stuff from DFS then headed off to sri lanka.. the plane ride was around 4-5 hours, reached sri lanka at around 7pm (sri lankan time, 2 hours later than singapore, means singapore time is 9pm).. washed up at the hotel and headed to the swimming club for dinner and drinks.. after that, some of us headed back to the hotel to slack, then headed to the casinos.. first we headed to bally's, but it kinda sucked, so we headed to bellagio.. well, i lost $3000 that night.. equivalent to $50 sing.. went back to the hotel and slept..
thu: woke up early in the morning as we all were forced to, had a morning jog.. to warm ourselves up before the game.. after the jog, we headed to have breakfast.. then some of us went to swim.. haha, took some funny pics at the pool.. then we all headed to the game.. it was vs the sri lankan u-19.. well, they had 40 players, and we only had 17.. it was a well played match by both teams, but they won by 2 tries.. we were all tired out.. for them, they used 2 different teams.. so it was kinda unfair, but we showed them what we singaporeans were made of.. headed back to the hotel to bathe and headed to clancy's.. had dinner and drinks there.. i was very very high that night cos i left my rattler in the pouch and was the last to take it out.. so i had to down black label whiskey with a little coke in a milk bottle.. 1/4 of the bottle filled with whiskey and, you can say, 1/4 of the 1/4 of whiskey was coke.. and u know how the kick will come if u slowly drink.. i was almost gone man.. headed back home, then slept..
fri: woke up in the morning, was supposed to go white water rafting, but fell sick.. had viral infection.. very high fever, bad cough with phlegm, flu, sore throat.. bad.. stayed at the hotel the whole day..
sat: stayed at the hotel.. bought medicine from the pharmacy but didn't work, called a doctor and treated me.. missed the next game which we won against white adults.. slept till the next day..
sun: woke up feeling much better.. had breakfast, then went shopping at odel.. not a bad place.. very cheap stuff.. then we had our own free time.. started to fall sick again, so headed back to the room and popped my pills.. wanted to join the guys out but brother ben told me to stay and rest.. there was my last night at sri lanka, at the hotel sleeping.. well done..
well, there goes my trip.. kinda screwed up.. oh well, gonna get ready to meet XY and squid to buy stuff for XY's BBQ later.. ciao..
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
some people just have no face.. doing the things they scold others for doing too.. well, now i see the people around me.. like XY's theory of masks.. what can i do? nothing.. its up to them.. for her, fuck it.. i give up..
can't wait for the sri lanka trip tomorrow!!! exactly 12 hours from now i'll have to be at terminal 1.. heh.. gonna have lots of fun man.. i hope.. woot! i miss her.. sigh.. she's back from aussieland.. yay.. but i doubt things will go the way i want.. i shall just give up.. its too hard..
Monday, November 15, 2004
i'm pissed.. cos i just wrote a damn long entry and IE screwed up.. FARK! forget it..
Friday, November 12, 2004
haven't been blogging for a while.. was supposed to meet her at holland but dunno why he came too.. sigh.. my mind just totally gave up.. she left for aussieland last night.. coming back on monday.. i'm going sri lanka coming wed.. can't wait!! heh.. hopefully can get to see her on tuesday.. hmm.. work has been pretty alright.. just pretty tired lately, haven't been having much sleep.. tuesday, slept at 4.30am, woke up at 8am, went for training, then headed down to KAP to have lunch, then was looking forward to going down to holland to meet her.. but.. was really sad.. anyway, met jan for a while before work.. worked till 11, then went home to sleep.. woke up early again today.. had to work split shift.. argh! 11-3, 6-10.. holland is now my second home.. its like i'm there everyday.. yea.. i'm so bored.. missing her.....
Monday, November 08, 2004
been thinking alot lately.. feels that i'm quite a loser.. sigh.. here's what happened in the weekend..
Friday: Woke myself up, got ready searching for all my stuff that needs to be brought to the game.. was searching high and low for my gloves.. my precious gloves.. sigh.. couldn't find it.. then as i was about to leave the house to go ash's house to meet him and leave from there, i decided to try one last time to search for my gloves.. thank God i found it.. it was under my table.. anyway, headed down to the friendly game at SA.. it was quite an alright match.. most of the newbies played, so it was quite noob, but not bad for newbies.. after the match, headed to the hawker centre nearby to have dinner.. talked about the guy who got stabbed at chinablack last wed.. talked about ppl so "humji" to only come when the fight is over.. haha.. it was quite a good talk i guess.. after which, christian and i headed down to holland.. was seriously hoping she would come, but she messaged me saying she didn't feel like holland today.. so, was kinda depressed the whole night.. oh well.. had a big bottle of Tiger at the market with christian, then faith came, and then jie with jes.. we headed to walas straight.. had alot of food there.. 2 pizzas, chicken chippolatas, wedges.. erdingers.. asahis.. haha.. alot man.. then many others came.. XY, stanley and his friends.. then we sat for awhile and finally decided to go up to watch the band.. yeah, the music kinda sucked cos they were playing acoustic all the way.. then everyone decided to leave early cos jie's grandma was admitted in the hospital and she was so worried, she left early.. then i decided to head over to meet her at her place downstairs just to chat.. when i reached, she told me her mom didn't even allow her to go downstairs, and she was really hungry, so i went to buy mee tai mak for her.. then her mother said that i could go up.. it was seriously very weird for me to go up.. so i went up and she was waiting for me at her doorstep.. went into her room and ate.. watched a lil' tv, chatted a lil' till she was tired, so i decided to leave.. went downstairs again.. chatted for awhile theni left for home.. she's really sick now.. i'm very worried.. told me she might have bronchitis.. anyway, will be praying for her..
Saturday: slacked the whole day at home till about evening, went to the club for an award dinner.. had lots to drink.. had beer, red wine, white wine.. it was all good.. finally got the 2 medals.. league champions and bowl champions.. went home at around 1 cos the function ended at 12.30am..
Sunday: went to church in the morning.. then headed to queensway with bro to look at shoes.. bought an All Star pair.. kinda happy with it.. then met smith at little india.. wanted to go check out the flea markets.. but we got lost.. and it was really hot yesterday.. perspired alot.. then we went to this shop called House of Japan.. all the second hand clothes there were extremely cheap.. jeans were at $5.. sweaters, cardigans at $10.. but didn't see anything i liked there.. then headed to Subway at shaw towers.. smith had his lunch, i already had mine.. stole a cookie from him.. haha.. then went to play LAN cos we were damn bored.. haha.. battlefield vietnam.. after which, had to go to work.. reached work at around 5.45pm.. then worked and worked.. was a pretty quiet night.. very quiet.. then after work, headed to bojangles at rail mall and met earl.. shared a jug of tiger.. after that, went home..
sigh.. am still pretty depressed about the whole thing.. think i shall give up.....
Friday: Woke myself up, got ready searching for all my stuff that needs to be brought to the game.. was searching high and low for my gloves.. my precious gloves.. sigh.. couldn't find it.. then as i was about to leave the house to go ash's house to meet him and leave from there, i decided to try one last time to search for my gloves.. thank God i found it.. it was under my table.. anyway, headed down to the friendly game at SA.. it was quite an alright match.. most of the newbies played, so it was quite noob, but not bad for newbies.. after the match, headed to the hawker centre nearby to have dinner.. talked about the guy who got stabbed at chinablack last wed.. talked about ppl so "humji" to only come when the fight is over.. haha.. it was quite a good talk i guess.. after which, christian and i headed down to holland.. was seriously hoping she would come, but she messaged me saying she didn't feel like holland today.. so, was kinda depressed the whole night.. oh well.. had a big bottle of Tiger at the market with christian, then faith came, and then jie with jes.. we headed to walas straight.. had alot of food there.. 2 pizzas, chicken chippolatas, wedges.. erdingers.. asahis.. haha.. alot man.. then many others came.. XY, stanley and his friends.. then we sat for awhile and finally decided to go up to watch the band.. yeah, the music kinda sucked cos they were playing acoustic all the way.. then everyone decided to leave early cos jie's grandma was admitted in the hospital and she was so worried, she left early.. then i decided to head over to meet her at her place downstairs just to chat.. when i reached, she told me her mom didn't even allow her to go downstairs, and she was really hungry, so i went to buy mee tai mak for her.. then her mother said that i could go up.. it was seriously very weird for me to go up.. so i went up and she was waiting for me at her doorstep.. went into her room and ate.. watched a lil' tv, chatted a lil' till she was tired, so i decided to leave.. went downstairs again.. chatted for awhile theni left for home.. she's really sick now.. i'm very worried.. told me she might have bronchitis.. anyway, will be praying for her..
Saturday: slacked the whole day at home till about evening, went to the club for an award dinner.. had lots to drink.. had beer, red wine, white wine.. it was all good.. finally got the 2 medals.. league champions and bowl champions.. went home at around 1 cos the function ended at 12.30am..
Sunday: went to church in the morning.. then headed to queensway with bro to look at shoes.. bought an All Star pair.. kinda happy with it.. then met smith at little india.. wanted to go check out the flea markets.. but we got lost.. and it was really hot yesterday.. perspired alot.. then we went to this shop called House of Japan.. all the second hand clothes there were extremely cheap.. jeans were at $5.. sweaters, cardigans at $10.. but didn't see anything i liked there.. then headed to Subway at shaw towers.. smith had his lunch, i already had mine.. stole a cookie from him.. haha.. then went to play LAN cos we were damn bored.. haha.. battlefield vietnam.. after which, had to go to work.. reached work at around 5.45pm.. then worked and worked.. was a pretty quiet night.. very quiet.. then after work, headed to bojangles at rail mall and met earl.. shared a jug of tiger.. after that, went home..
sigh.. am still pretty depressed about the whole thing.. think i shall give up.....
Friday, November 05, 2004
work's been alright.. was the only part-timer there today.. all the full timers were working.. can say that i'm the only "black" guy there.. haha.. i'm so bored.. have a game at SASS tomorrow, ngee ann versus SASS.. lol.. friendly match.. after that, heading down to holland.. going to walas.. hopefully she can come down man.. sigh.. gtg now.. very tired.. ciao
Thursday, November 04, 2004
sigh.. sometimes i just get the feeling whether i'm good enough for her.. i may not get her in the end.. dunno.. maybe i'm just too sensitive.. heh.. ;) its so bored staying at home doing nothing.. gonna work later.. with joel.. hmm.. i feel like paying her a visit, checking how she's doing.. i really pray she'll get well real soon.. yep..
woke up and gone for training.. was still too tired.. but dragged myself down.. after training, had lunch with ash and alex in school, then headed to cashew park and met joel to sun tan.. sun was pretty good, only for awhile.. but oh well, better than nothing.. she's really sick today.. kinda worried.. but finally she went to see the doc's.. at least she's on medication now.. hopefully she'll recover soon.. sigh.. i dun know what's going on with me.. the things i do, hurt ppl so much.. i myself dun really notice until everything starts to become a mess.. just like a mushroom cloud after an atomic bomb explodes.. its seriously that bad.. sigh.. maybe i'm just too protective.. maybe i'm just smitten.. sigh.. how now brown cow? i really hope something good will happen between her & me.. i'll be very happy.. but then again, i dun wanna lose a friend.. a friend whom i was a bastard to.. sigh.. dunno what's going on with me.. my whole life's screwed.. its all in a mess.. i really have to sort things out clearly now.. get my priorities right.. work has been pretty boring the past few days.. maybe its the supervisors, maybe its just me.. sigh.. everything is just me.. dunno what to do man.. i've been drifting away from God already, way too far.. i need him now.. sigh.. Lord, please help me! anyway, hope i'll see her real soon.. i really miss her alot.. nites..
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
went out with her today together with a few others.. she's really sweet.. heh.. met her at wisma with M and then went over to topman and bought 2 tees.. she sort of chose the colours for me.. then we went to the mc'cafe at lido and slacked.. charm and her sis came and joined us.. they talked alot, mostly about girl's stuff.. then charm's sister went off.. and we met C and mike.. they joined us at mc'cafe.. after that, went to buy movie tix, then R came.. had dinner together.. shared a subway meal with her.. then we went for our movie.. we all watched shark's tale.. haha its a damn funny show.. luckily we didn't waste our money cos it was all M and R's idea of watching it.. after the movie, M, R and charm headed home.. so me, mike, C and she decided to go play pool.. she was sick, coughing real badly.. kinda worried.. anyway, took the train home with them, and chatted a lil'.. then had quite a talk with C.. haha.. the very first thing she did when she left was to ask me whether i liked her.. and the chat goes on.. heh.. how man.. i dun even know whether she likes me or not.. want to know.. should i take the first step? or just leave it as it is? sigh.. dun really know man.. M says she's behind me all the way..
