unkle grumps.

woke up and gone for training.. was still too tired.. but dragged myself down.. after training, had lunch with ash and alex in school, then headed to cashew park and met joel to sun tan.. sun was pretty good, only for awhile.. but oh well, better than nothing.. she's really sick today.. kinda worried.. but finally she went to see the doc's.. at least she's on medication now.. hopefully she'll recover soon.. sigh.. i dun know what's going on with me.. the things i do, hurt ppl so much.. i myself dun really notice until everything starts to become a mess.. just like a mushroom cloud after an atomic bomb explodes.. its seriously that bad.. sigh.. maybe i'm just too protective.. maybe i'm just smitten.. sigh.. how now brown cow? i really hope something good will happen between her & me.. i'll be very happy.. but then again, i dun wanna lose a friend.. a friend whom i was a bastard to.. sigh.. dunno what's going on with me.. my whole life's screwed.. its all in a mess.. i really have to sort things out clearly now.. get my priorities right.. work has been pretty boring the past few days.. maybe its the supervisors, maybe its just me.. sigh.. everything is just me.. dunno what to do man.. i've been drifting away from God already, way too far.. i need him now.. sigh.. Lord, please help me! anyway, hope i'll see her real soon.. i really miss her alot.. nites..