unkle grumps.

the match today was kinda awesome.. we won both matches against SRC.. YES! got into a fight with the opposite winger when he started punching me.. punched him back.. but to spite him even more, i scored a try and laughed at him.. LOL made me feel good man.. anyway, next week, bucks.. ashley, joel, ravi are playing for bucks.. don't be too complacent.. i'm tired..

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so, here's what happenede last night..

headed over to the lot, stock & barrel pub at around 9.45pm..

had to wait for justin to come, so i started drinking first..

finally he came at around 11.. this is my godfather..

that ass made me drink and drink and drink..

look at this drunk bastard..

got home at around 3, puked, bathed, slept and woke up with a terrible hang-over.. dang.. rugby match later at YCK against SRC.. toughest match of the season..

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a lot of shit has happened suring the past few days.. lemme recall..

thursday: can't remember what happened, so, skip it.. haha

friday: went to work, then headed down to "The Penny Black" over at boat quay for a job interview.. not sure whether i'll get the job or not.. then, met shaun and headed down to party world to meet giap, chris, xian qing and shane.. then met alex and everyone soon came down.. got stuck at cine for a few hours cos some of them didn't know what to do, but we already did plan to go to plasma for a drink, then was OCH.. for those who don't know, its Old Changi Hospital.. headed to plasma for 6 jugs of beer and a karaoke session, again.. thats 2 karaoke sessions in a day! after which, had some problem over at chinablack, so gabe, giap, xian qing, chris, earl, shane, mike, kenneth, mindy, shaun and i rushed down, only to realise the thing had been settled.. so we slacked at mac's.. met chik there whom had some problem too.. saw him get beaten up by malays.. FUCK! right in front of my eyes.. police were all around cos of the other problem.. couldn't help him man.. sigh, it hurts to see a friend get bashed and you can't do anything about it.. anyway, took the first bus home with earl..

saturday: tankards vs wanderers.. they were a strong team, and we lost to them 5-3.. fuck man.. after which, headed back to the club, showered, had dinner there, then headed to Harry's boat quay where wanderer's hosted us.. had free beers.. haha.. headed home after that, damn tired..

sunday (today): woke up at 6PM, was late for work.. took a cab down.. met earl after work and we headed to Baden for some beers.. then had to rush home cos the maid ran away.. my mom was scolding her cos she stole alot of things from us.. 6 pairs of nike socks in a bag which my father bought from US for me, a bracelett meant for bever-leigh which my mom bought, a towel from the US which the maid took and labeled her name, saying she bought it in philippines for only $1.20.. what bullshit.. anyway, my mom went to the police to report everything.. up till now, 1.03AM, she ain't home.. she's fucked man..

fuck i'm tired.. after a few beers and all, i need some sleep..

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pictures from last night, not much though, and not that clear, but ohwell..

my favourite picture of the night.. HAHA!

i feel like running away.. running away from all these shit i'm going through.. run far far away from home.. i hate my mother.. I HATE YOU!

Home last night was, as usual, madness.. fights going on, police around, SSB checking IDs and all, underage kids, drunk fucks, etc. got home (the real home) at around 4.30am, had supper with joel, alex and ash at boon tong kee before that.. slept, and woke up so damn fucking early cos my mother was screaming her head off, as usual.. had to fucking clear up the room cos the contractors and all were coming soon.. was so damn pissed and pek chek, fucking early in the morning, waking me up to do heavy chores.. basket..

oh, and someone's got a new life! fucking keep quiet and all.. what a friend.. forget it..

in class now, gonna sleep..

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ain't colours nice? decided to add some into my blog..

oh yes, just recorded a new song.. it's called "I Remember".. original song, but a rough idea of what the song is gonna be like.. not confirmed its gonna sound like that.. heh..

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school was as per normal yesterday.. met up with gabe for lunch, had a long chat.. then headed for class, my favourite mod, practicals.. heh.. finished up my FM radio, now there's a 20 minute timer added to it, and will auto-off after 20 mins.. cool huh..

met up with wesley at holland village at around 9.. headed to walas for a drink and to catch the live band.. talked about our future, our inspirations and all.. talked about sitting up there on the stage one day, playing and singing.. haha.. big dreams.. well, its possible.. contacts, practice, is all we need..

pictures up!

my FM radio, it works!

haha! my foot and my teacher's ass..

didn't go to school today, woke up late.. had a lab test today, was thinking whether i should go, but was feeling damn lazy to move my butt outta the bed, so i stayed at home.. watched CSI: NY the whole day, been doing nothing except that.. supposed to go training later, but it rained, ground's wet, not my type of training ground, and, i'm lazy too.. heh.. okay, gonna continue my CSI..

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friendster's a lil wired now.. in my new account, i have 30 pics uploaded, and still can upload more, but lazy to.. haha..

anyway, church today.. had to sing a song, got back positive comments, so am rather happy about it.. yep.. jamming this wed and fri again.. tues training, the rest, working.. life of a polytechnic student.. haha.. no time for studying.. LOL..

been packing the whole room the whole damn day with the bitch nagging every minute.. damn.. gonna renovate the rooms, change the wardrobe area, new tables and all.. fucking shacked.. have to clear the whole damn table, under the table, the whole wardrobe and all.. those who have seen my room will be able to understand.. haha.. shit..

okay, school tomorrow again, gonna sleep soon..

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time to blog again..

been working the past few days.. it has been fun, sometimes tiring, sometimes bored, but company was good..

also, have been drinking everyday without fail.. after work, would go grab a beer or 2 with my supervisor.. if not, hang out with friends, and drink beer..

rugby today.. played like shit.. my mind wasn't switched on, so i was like dreaming half the time.. they took me out during half-time, but got a chance to redeem myself in the second game..

after that, headed back to the club, showered, had a few beers, chips, muruku, NZ vs AUS match, MAN U vs EVERTON match..

then we took a long drive to east coast, damn.. went to a wake, had some food there too.. sat there, chill, chat, with lots of other ruggers.. took NR home, and seriously damn shacked now.. gonna sleep..

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have gotten lazy on my entries.. well, not much has happened recently..

been working the past few days.. had work today too.. after which, headed to town to meet the peeps, had lunch, bought new earrings, then headed to bugis for jamming session.. played bass today, and it was kinda fun.. after jamming, headed to the usual pub to have a drink with my godfather, justin.. AGAIN, he ordered another bottle of johnny walker black label.. drank until siao, had to take a cab home.. madness.. will prob visit him in thailand at the end of the year cos he's opening a pub there.. yep.. school starts tomorrow, heh.. been a while since i went to school..

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woke up late for church, as usual.. after church, went to town with my brother, ber, sher and bev.. wanted to go kbox, but it was kinda ex, so we skipped it.. headed to the arcade for awhile before going down to maestro bistro.. lionel, fred and eunice joined us soon after.. service at maestro was crap.. totally crap.. but i kinda pitied the manager although his service is not so good.. ended up, the boss had to come down to help..

dinner was at binjai park, bbq, with the family and other adam road church friends.. food was good.. stayed for awhile to chat, then headed to lionel's house.. slacked around, played table tennis, foolsball, then headed home..

damn, my throat is killing me, been like this since last night.. really sore man.. anyway, not sure if i'm going to school tomorrow.. don't feel like.. haha..

gonna play some poker now..

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just came back from work.. it was alright.. pretty busy day.. restaurant was fully packed today.. downstairs was hectic and full of kids running around.. grrr.. upstairs was booked by some mediacorp artiste and crew of the upcoming "shooting stars" or whatever you call it.. a few familiar faces were there.. like olinda, sylvester, daphne khoo.. and the whole crew.. oh, and ananda's wife ate there too.. haha.. there was this group of hongkongers, thinking we are supermen.. expects everything to be served quickly.. like for example, the lobster takes about 20-30 mins to prepare.. and 10 mins after ordering, he ask's where's the food.. what a bastard.. he and his friends were talking so loudly, laughing so loudly like it was a market.. and his kids are running over the place and he doesn't give a shit.. that led to customers walking out of the restaurant without ordering.. overall, work was fun, but madness, running here and there..

its so damn boring at home..

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pictures pictures! finally i got them uploaded..

carleel's birthday over at B.U.S.K..

smith fucking drunk after a bottle of e33.. haha!

the box of vitagen i stole.. LOL

julian's catch of the night..

stayed home the whole day, didn't go school.. had jamming session again at potong pasir.. fucking far.. and i don't even know where the damn place was.. after that was dinner with gabriel and bryne.. then headed to ash's party over at onyx for awhile before going home.. the place was not bad.. a lil' ex though.. music was good.. bar top dancers were good.. haha.. boring at home man..

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a chain of unfortunate events happened over the past few days.. first, it was going out late every night, which angst my father and grounded me.. a few days later was doing "something" which made him even more pissed and grounded me even more.. then it was last night.. took my father's car out for supper, scraped a pillar and dented the whole door.. i was fucked.. totally in a state of shock.. i didn't know what to do.. i kept thinking, should i lie and say that it wasn't me and that making him think it was some idiot who knocked the car? or should i just tell the truth and get what i deserve? there were a few solutions for me, one was to fuck it, keep quiet about it, hoping he would not find out about it, until he goes to work, thinking that someone at the workplace knocked his car.. the next was to get a friend who has a license, and help me ask his parents to be in cahoots with me, saying my friend drove and take the blame, but i'll pay for the damage. but no one would help me on that, understandable.. or to just tell him the truth and get fucked.. the whole night i was at a loss.. i didn't know what to do.. but in the morning, i picked up my courage and told him the truth.. i kept thinking about the positive things.. like what would happen if i crashed instead.. it would be worse.. kept thinking that at least i wasn't the one getting dented.. but these thoughts cannot overthrow what i was thinking.. thinking about the consequences when i get home, thinking about how my father would feel, thinking about the amount i have to pay.. in the end, i told my father the truth.. i'm proud of myself of my courage to do so, but am hating myself for not thinking before i do things, hurtin gmy father's feelings all the time..

my whole life, i've let my parents down.. especially my father.. i really do love him alot, but time and time again, i do things that hurt him.. he has high blood pressure and i don't want any of what i do to affect his health.. i'm the worse in the family.. my medical bills cost a bomb.. can say in my whole life, about $20,000 - $30,000.. from head to toe, i've got an op.. sigh.. other things, like stealing, drinking till i get drunk (my father had to come bring me home), s*****g, lying, wanting to commit suicide, everything.. all these made him hurt, and thinking back on what he's done for me my whole life, which is a whole fucking lot, i really do regret my actions, and i fell hurt too, for hurting my father.. i'm at a loss now.. losing almost everything.. its time i buck up, think about my life, what's gonna happen in the future.. i can't live in this shit-hole anymore.. it sucks.. really, it sucks.. i know my father loves me alot, but i keep doing things that disappoint him, and i tell you, that feeling sucks.. cos i do love my father a hell lot too.. what he's been doing, his whole life, everything was for us, his children.. i'm starting to realise this.. when he lectures me or bashes me up, i won't retaliate.. i know i'm in the wrong, and i love him to even touch him back.. Dad, i'm really sorry for everything.. I love you dad.. you're the most important person in my life..

all these, i say from the bottom of my heart.. its time i do something about it.. no more shit for me.. and i'm hell serious about this..

sigh

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just came back from a drink with justin.. its been months since i last saw him.. gonna meet up with him before he leaves again.. before that was a jamming session with bryne, gab, kan and sean.. so its gonna be jamming every wednesday and friday.. for the partyyy on the 24th of september.. can't wait man.. beer, music, beer, food, beer, music, beer, more beer, even more beer, and dancing.. hopefully, hockey chicks.. heh..

haven't been out in days man.. took a day off today.. haha.. it was good.. and my stock has come.. last night.. happyy.. but it kinda sucks, the taste i mean..

hmm.. Onyx on friday.. not sure if i can go man.. would love to.. pick up some hot chicks.. LOL.. drink, dance the night away.. heh, wonderful..

so now there's no season 2 of "Lost", what am i gonna do everyday at home? should i watch CSI season 4? or start watching CSI NY season 1? home is boringgg.. BORED!!!

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i've finished making my FM radio man.. with all the resistors, capacitors, jumpers, everything messed up on the 3 by 2 inch board, i actually managed to achieve it.. haha.. the feeling is like "so fucking sweeeeeeeeeeeet"! gonna take a pic of it and post it up soon..

went home straight after school, YOU should know why.. continued watching "Lost", had dinner, took a nap, then continued watching again.. think i'm gonna continue later.. haha.. the show i've missed, been wanting to catch it, never could.. thanks to dad who bought the whole season from china, not forgetting CSI season 4, and CSI NY.. woohoo.. guess i have something to do at home after all, for awhile, since i'm gonna be home everyday.. sucks..

i need someone..

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