Thursday, September 30, 2004
*no one knows what its like, to be the bad man, to be the sad man, behind blue eyes*
thats the song stuck in my head right now.. yesterday i met her, i was so happy just to see her.. i guess we were just not meant to be.. she was so sweet, so beautiful, so adorable, i took advantage of that, now i regret.. i lost to someone whom i trusted all my life, who cheated on me.. FUCK YOU! well.. no point being angry.. i'm at ash's house now.. stayed over.. nothing to do, so just drank.. sigh.. life is like that.. i can't change anything..
thats the song stuck in my head right now.. yesterday i met her, i was so happy just to see her.. i guess we were just not meant to be.. she was so sweet, so beautiful, so adorable, i took advantage of that, now i regret.. i lost to someone whom i trusted all my life, who cheated on me.. FUCK YOU! well.. no point being angry.. i'm at ash's house now.. stayed over.. nothing to do, so just drank.. sigh.. life is like that.. i can't change anything..
*Where are you? and i'm so sorry. i cannot sleep, i cannot dream tonight, i need somebody and always. this sick strange darkness, Comes creeping on so haunting every time, as I stared I counted. Webs from all the spiders, Catching things and eating their insides, Like indecision to call you. and hear your voice of treason. Will you come home and stop this pain tonight, Stop this pain tonight.
