unkle grumps.

i've declared, 2006 is a bad year for me.. for the first time, i've lost $200 just by gambling on CNY with small bets like $2.. and all in my mind, i'm just thinking about recouping my losses.. but in fact, i'm actually losing even more.. sigh..

singapore idol.. i started queueing since friday night 10pm, did not get any sleep at all.. the next morning, we had to wait for our turn under the hot sun.. it reached my turn at about 12pm.. then had to wait at a sheltered area after registering.. an hour later, had to go up for the auditions.. i was nervous.. when i went into the auditioning room,i was shaking a lil'.. then i started singing.. "fly me to the moon" by frank sinatra.. i swear i didn't make a single mistake in the song.. i was quite confident when i came out.. but when i got the results, i was shocked.. i didn't make it.. i was so damn upset.. my dreams about doing music, smashed.. i do not know what to do now.. sigh.. btw, i wasn't judged by the 4 judges.. i was judged by the producer.. i don't think the producer has the talent to even pick who's good and who's not.. as i know, a few people whom i didn't think will make it actually made it.. sigh i was damn sad.. maybe she just wasn't looking for my kind of voice.. oh well.. no use crying over spilled milk..

hmm.. so what am i gonna do now? pop said to try again next season.. my bro said he'll join with me next season.. maybe i should just practice my singing from now on.. become even better than now.. i just wanna make it somewhere.. sigh..

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