Friday, February 25, 2005
wow.. its been, more than 3 weeks since i last blogged.. anyway, nothing much happening now.. just cut my hair last sat.. a lil' too short i guess.. so, been gymming AGAIN recently.. started on wednesday, just did gym today too.. gonna be tired out again tomorrow..
been thinking about some stuff the past few days.. the time i quit rugby, everybody started to avoid me.. well, almost everybody.. been close to ash, joel, and many others before i quit, would meet up for drinks, chill at swimming pools, club, gamble.. not anymore.. just found out that ash booked a table for his birthday at zouk tomorrow.. although i wished him, i didn't get an invitation.. well, ain't up to me to decide..
been getting further and further away from my usual group of friends too.. something's not right.. i need a life man, like seriously.. i need a companion, someone who can encourage me when i'm feeling down, like now for instance.. i need someone to laugh with, to cry with, to share all the feelings that are cooped up in myself.. sigh.. come to think of it, i absolutely have no close friends.. all the "close" ones are just normal friends.. i just don't have someone or some who would bother to scroll down their phonebook to look for my name and call me out to chill.. honestly speaking, i'd be happy if someone actually asks me out for a drink or whatever.. sigh.. i think i'm fading further away from God..
gonna work night shift tomorrow.. ain't got no life at all.. go to school, head home after school cos i can't find a kaki to chill, sometimes i go to work, sleep at home.. damn.. fucked up life.. my msn contacts are full, every night there are at least 50 people online, and i don't get any message from whosoever.. not even a hi.. i would have to make the first move.. sigh.. this is getting bad.. i need to think about my life now..
this blog is my only means of shouting everything out now.. ain't got no one around to do so.. sigh..
been thinking about some stuff the past few days.. the time i quit rugby, everybody started to avoid me.. well, almost everybody.. been close to ash, joel, and many others before i quit, would meet up for drinks, chill at swimming pools, club, gamble.. not anymore.. just found out that ash booked a table for his birthday at zouk tomorrow.. although i wished him, i didn't get an invitation.. well, ain't up to me to decide..
been getting further and further away from my usual group of friends too.. something's not right.. i need a life man, like seriously.. i need a companion, someone who can encourage me when i'm feeling down, like now for instance.. i need someone to laugh with, to cry with, to share all the feelings that are cooped up in myself.. sigh.. come to think of it, i absolutely have no close friends.. all the "close" ones are just normal friends.. i just don't have someone or some who would bother to scroll down their phonebook to look for my name and call me out to chill.. honestly speaking, i'd be happy if someone actually asks me out for a drink or whatever.. sigh.. i think i'm fading further away from God..
gonna work night shift tomorrow.. ain't got no life at all.. go to school, head home after school cos i can't find a kaki to chill, sometimes i go to work, sleep at home.. damn.. fucked up life.. my msn contacts are full, every night there are at least 50 people online, and i don't get any message from whosoever.. not even a hi.. i would have to make the first move.. sigh.. this is getting bad.. i need to think about my life now..
this blog is my only means of shouting everything out now.. ain't got no one around to do so.. sigh..
